perplexed

i am happy
that now you have what you wanted

i am confused
whether you have what you need

i am thoughtful
whether you will always have what you want

i am frightened
that your heart will be broken once again

(thats why i opened my mind to you)

i am sad
that you felt i was abnormal when i opened my mind to you

and i am astonished
that we have lost the magic.

trust & promises
were to broke,
coz it was larger than life

care and share
were to forget
coz it was conditional

love is still there
( i believe)
forever and ever and ever

final thought

weapons, all around
people staring
(with mixed feelings)
time ticking
heart beating
(still feel so)

attack for a second
i live, if i can defend

but how
with my eyes blindfolded